Hi, my name is cerri I am 25 - married with 3 children.
I lost my father to suicide when I was 6, my mother died when I was 19 after suffering from lung disease.
I watched my 36 year old sister die, when I took her off life support after a brain hemmorage (I was 22). Then my youngest brother died at the age of 17, in a motorbike accident - I was 24.
I am on a lose dose of anti depressent to help with my anxiety mainly.
However the only way I have continued to survive and look after my children is my repressing all of my grief and carrying on.
This means it’s starting to come out in ways I would rather avoid, excess irritability and waking up hysterically crying in my sleep.
I have had councillors however due go the amount of trauma and abusive childhood many don’t seem to know how to help me.
I want to accept the past and move on, however I have no idea how to.