Why does grief make you feel insane. It’s getting harder
11 weeks 4 days. My life ended.
I have ms lack of sleep is flaring it up.
You feel you keep hitting a brick wall.
Am I just weak now?
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Cat, I am so sorry you are feeling so bad, 11 weeks and 4 days, with me, 3 months was about the time that it really hit, The Corners report, the registration, Probate / letters of administration, funeral arrangements. All things you have forced yourself to do are done. Family and friends have probably been trying to support you, Then nothing urgent to do, friends drifting back to their normal lives, Children back at work, Suddenly I realized that this is what it was going to be. Why was I here, my purpose for living, gone. Then slowly things started to get organized a bit. The vicar persuaded me to go to the Bereavement cafe.
I was meeting my Daughter after her work in London and going for a meal occasionally, She would organize these meetings as she was at work. Then she texted me " Meet at 11 O clock Thursday, I replied where, On the Wednesday she texted me Gatwick Airport, don’t forget your Passport. We went to La Rochelle for 4 days. I found that although I still shed tears a lot when on my own, life could have some good times.
There can be enjoyable times ahead, Yes I will always miss my Darling and always love her but 15 months in I think that life will not be as good as we had but different and livable…
I hope things start to get better for you soon.
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Thank you so much.
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Cat6 no your not weak .
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Crashing badly - out of nowhere I suddenly totally and utterly overwhelmed by the enormity of my loss and the stark reality of where my life is now.
Not for the first time I know, doubtless not the last either, but right now I’ve truly had enough…
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Today seems to be a bad day all round. I am sorry
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@PSHm3
I have just read your post and I understand completely… 100%
I feel exactly the same, most days to be honest.
It is exactly as you describe it… the enormity of the loss and the stark reality of where our life is now.
I have anxiety and panic attacks daily, and never experienced these before.
It’s so frightening, overwhelming and very lonely.
The future is completely unknown and there is no certainty to anything.
Believe me… I know what you’re describing and are feeling.
This lonely and unwanted existence has no routine, direction or meaning. It seems so pointless.
It literally just involves getting through one day to face the next, but without any of the happiness or joy we once had.
I honestly don’ t know what the answers are… but I would like you to know that you are not alone in feeling the way you do about your loss and your situation.
I recognise your desperation and I am so sorry because I know how horrible and frightening it is.
Eve x
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I’m 15 weeks in, it’s so life altering. The day to day without that special one and only. Our brains and hearts are trying to adjust to this new reality somehow. Impossible to image. Sorry for everyone here.
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I am very sorry for your loss.
Sending you a big hug
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So sorry Phil
Please email me if you want to
Kate
Hi
Are you ok?