My dad had severe aphasia and was in another country. The last couple of weeks of his life he was in hospital and couldnt speak. I was planning to go to see him in a week or two once i finished some work. I didnt think he was on his deathbed as my family kept saying he was getting better, he died as i was on the plane to visit him. Its been 3 months and im still under shock. I had wracking guilt for weeks but now i wake up sad feeling dread. I feel i let him down and i just want to be able to hold his hand and tell him i love him
I’m so sorry, @soraya1 - that is devastating. It can be so hard when we don’t have the chance to say the things we wanted to say to someone we love. I know that other members have found writing a letter or a journal helpful as a way of talking to them. We have an article that gives some tips on writing a grief journal which you might find helpful:
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. I just wanted to share that link with you and let you know that you’ve been heard.
Take care,
Seaneen