Hi my gorgeous man.
I just wanted to send it out there that i miss you and i will love you forever. 34 years we have been married but you are not here now to celebrate this beautiful life we had together.
I will try and make you proud but also bear with me if some days i can’t hold on as strongly as you would like me to.
I will be there for our children in good times and bad.
I will protect them as strongly as you did and we did as a team.
Happy anniversary my heart xx
Hi my gorgeous man.
Yes they may be gone from this world but they will always be loved and missed by us.
35 years married for me but 38years together nearly half my life spent with him.
I am 66 years old and this week got my 1st state pension which we thought we would have together however he was taken at 63 so not to be. Strange how we plan things for the future together not to happen now.
Take care x
I have another 5 years for work but to be honest, it is keeping me sane. Colin didnt get the chance either to claim his pension, he was 63. His birthday is coming up 13th December another first of many special days without him. So many plans we had but also, so many memories to hold on to.
Waking up this morning and getting ready to face another day i caught sight of myself in the mirror and i didn’t recognise my reflection looking back at me anymore. When will i see me looking back again…i don’t think i ever will.
Yes dont think we will ever look or feel same anymore. I lost over a stone in weight not that i wanted to just happened now some clothes coats too big.
Think ive aged too dont like to look in mirror anymore. Used to volunteer when i gave up work 2 years ago i had ovarian cancer now 2 years since operations and levels steady so only 8 more years of monitoring.
Maybe need to look at volunteering as that would get me out house and away from daytime TV
@nicky1961 it was my anniversary last week, so I feel for you today. We would have been married 35 years. I too feel like I’ve aged a lot in the last 7 months. I’m sure the grief takes it toll physically. Hopefully, it’s temporary and I’ll be looking younger again soon . Got to try to laugh. Take care & sending hugs.
I am 56 . I hoped that I would be able to stop completely working soon but now I will have to do so until I am 67 now
Yes i managed to get to 66 and just got my 1st week of state pension how i wish i had my husband here to share this week.
We had so many plans ahead he took early retirement in Feb aged 63 but died in Jun so we didnt get that time together.
We dont know whats ahead for each of us anymore and dont know what time each of us has left so live each day to the full.
It has been a hard day today yes. But i have been smelling him all day. Its not just my imagination either because his brother in law and husband came around today and could also smell DUPE . I also felt by bum being touched and that is what Colin always did whenever i walked passed him…it eased my heart for a few minutes.