I know it’s never going to happen, but…
There was so much unsaid, so say it before you can’t 
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Very wise words.
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Dear @Johnr
That’s beautiful.
My mantra now to every couple I know is to …
“Enjoy and embrace the mundane and ordinary moments, because they are the most special and the ones missed the most”
Love, hugs and strength to all reading 
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Thanks Cath.
So sorry you lost your love as well. It’s heartbreaking as you know, but we must learn to live with this.
You take care. 
johnnr
I loved those words.I wish i could have my dear wife back.to tell her how much i love her,to hold her hand,share things together.now there is nothing.i try to hold onto the memories.Life is so cruel,it always seems the nicest,kindest most loving of people are taken from us.its so heartbreaking.the empty house is really heartbreaking.our home now she is no longer here.
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Thanks. It’s so hard. People who haven’t lost a partner have no idea how heartbreaking it is.
I wrote Jackie a letter that was placed in her coffin that sums up how I was and still am feeling.
Jackie,
It’s hard to believe that it’s only been a short while since you left. In that time, it feels like I’ve been living in some sort of dream. At times, it feels as though I’m moving through the motions, like a zombie. Other times, it’s a nightmare that I can’t seem to escape, a constant, gnawing feeling that I’m losing myself without you. The thought that you’re never coming back is almost too much to bear.
The hardest part is going to bed at night. In the quiet, I relive our happiest moments together. I dream of us, as though we’ve had eighty years together instead of the years we had. It’s so hard to accept that those moments are just that; moments in a dream, not reality.
There are days when I feel you near, as if you’re still here with me. I can almost hear your voice in the stillness, and I hold on to that feeling like a lifeline. But then, there are days when doubt creeps in, and I’m left thinking that you’re truly gone, that I’m clinging to something that’s not there. It’s a strange and painful place to be, even as I write this letter to you.
One thing that’s become clear is how life moves on for everyone else, and there are moments when I find myself avoiding others. They have their own burdens, their own lives to live. But I’ve also been touched by the kindness of our family and friends, many of whom you would have been so surprised by. Their support has been a reminder of how deeply you were loved, and how many lives you’ve touched.
The love and companionship you gave me is a rare gift, something I know only comes once in a lifetime. I can’t imagine life without you in it. Before you, my life felt aimless, like a melody without purpose. Now, the music feels hollow.
Where have you gone, my love? Why did you have to leave so soon? I’m left with a void I don’t know how to fill. What will I do without you? I miss you more than words can express.
I love you, Jackie. Always and forever.
John
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John that was a lovely letter and sums up my feelings exactly.My world seems se empty without my dear wife.It all seems like a bad dream.take good care of youself.
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Same here.
I’m on a week break in Snowdonia and as good as it is, it feels so weird without Jackie. There are times when I hate it and want to go home, but she’s not there
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I hope you enjoy your break John.We loved snowdonia,the beautiful scenery,the lovely villages,we loved Criccieth and Llandudno too.One of the last photos i took of her was at llandudno.i have them on my bedside table next to me.One of the worst things is the empty house,the silence.
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Dear @Johnr
That is beautiful.
Thankyou so much for sharing such a personal letter, but one with words and emotions that will resonate with so many of us.
Bless you.
Take care,
Love , hugs and strength
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Thank you johnr for sharing your lovely letter to Jackie.That is exactly how i feel.You have described just how we are all feeling.Myself you have described my feelings.Its all so hard.For me it was the sddenness it happened and the heartbreak i couldnt say goodye to her.
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