Hello everyone, quick sit rep from me.
On Wednesday, it was time to drive a long way for the first time in my “new” car, to take the remaining family things to my brother-in-law.
One of the things to go was an old fashioned dental drill (Tom’s dad was a dentist). Tom kept the drill after his dad died and it has been in its spot, at the top of the stairs ( I know, weird but that was just where it was) for the past 7 years.
Where it stood, it witnessed Tom collapsing, the paramedics swarming around, Tom being carried past, down the stairs. Tom, that long day, lying on the floor next to it as we waited for the ambulance. Tom, inching down the stairs on his bottom that last day he was here, before being taken into the ambulance. So that dental drill, it had been my curious companion, a witness to the pain, drama, sadness of all that time.
I headed up the stairs to lift it down and into the car. Jeepers! It weighed a ton…I inched it down, stair by stair, and wrangled it into the car. I drove that long distance for me (2.5 hours) and it was carried by his brother into the garage there.
I drove home yesterday and came up the stairs with my bag. The spot where the drill stood, empty, no trace, save an imprint on the carpet. Another gap in my present, but also, space in a good way. Space for me to grow into my new life. Today is a work day, more interviews for the book. On we go, together, one step, one dental drill wrangled, at a time. Loads of love, your friend, Vancouver x