My mum died yesterday and I feel like I am going to pass out with the intense pain. I don’t know how to deal with it at all. I don’t even know why I am writing this now. I don’t expect to feel ok only 24 hours after I lost her but II feel like the pain is killing me inside. I have loads of lovely friends and family but all I want is my mum. I can’t even begin to process this, it was so fast and I was completely unprepared. My son was best friends with his Grandna and he is devastated too. Our house is full of sadness.
So sad to read your post. You will definitely be in shock. Unfortunately grief creates both emotional and physical pain so just take one hour at a time for now. Support each other. There will be others on this forum who are in a similar position and will listen and support as best they can.
I’m so sorry. Lost my mum in June, it was also very sudden and unexpected. I had to clear her house as the street is planned for demolition. This was going to be a house move for mum but ended up as a painful house clearance. Everyday I have tears and have moments of disbelief. I have found some comfort in looking at lots of old pictures of my mum and dad when they were younger. Of course this brings on tears but a curiosity of looking at where my routes were and are helps me with this feeling of rudderless and sadness.
Thankyou for your reply. I have been lucky never to have experienced anything like this in my life until now but it’s just so awful, it’s so hard to process whats happened. I know it will take a very very long time.
I’m so sorry for your loss, and I feel your pain and devastation. My poor mum died only two months ago, and i still feel physical pain everyday. I struggle with day to day tasks, and alot of the time all I feel is that I want to go to the hospital and be sedated, or be with my mum because this physical and mental pain in unbearable. I relive being In hospital with her, and her dying in my arms ever single day.
I wish I could help, but all I can say is I know exactly how your feeling. The pain is awful. My eldest child was also really close with my mum, and is really struggling.
Sending whatever love and strength I have, and I’m so sorry your wonderful mum has gone and your having to feel this pain. Life is cruel xxx