My mum is in hospital, with an infection. Cancer is everywhere, doctors have said it’s in its end stages.
She had a high temp on Sunday morning, then went really low. I’ve heard this is a sign of the body shutting down, bleeding when she goes for a wee. Tiny tiny bits of urine being produced, as diseased kidney completely caput. Diarrhoea, not eating hardly anything, few spoons of soup. Pain ramping up. She told me that yesterday she had woken screaming and crying in pain in the middle of the night. They are giving morphine orally, but not keeping it at bay, I think she needs a driver??? Help please advise. I’ve rang their local hospice nurses, waiting for them to call me back.
Frantic with worry, can’t bear it, can’t bear thinking of her suffering and can’t be with her. Bastard covid. Sorry for the language.
She’s deteriorating rapidly. She has been talking of her funeral the day before she went into hospital. Over the past 2 days she has been saying her goodbyes to me and my sister. At first I was crying and saying please don’t go, but then I read somewhere that the kindest thing you can do is to tell them it’s ok to go. 
so last night on the phone about 7.30pm I said to her if god is calling you, it’s ok, you must go, you’ve been so brave and have been an inspiration. Told her over and over and over again that I loved her 
My dad been ringing her mobile from first thing this morning, he then rang the nurse desk on the ward and they went to look at her. Her phone was there on her tray table, but she said she doesn’t feel like talking.
Feel I’m going out of my mind. Wish she’d slip
Into a deep sleep. Can’t they do something.
