I lost my mum to lung cancer at the end of April. It was a year from diagnosis to her passing. I was her primary carer and dealt with all the medical appointments, medication etc. She died in hospice care after several weeks in hospital with pneumonia and a fractured hip due to metastasis in the bone.
It’s been 12 weeks since she died and I feel utterly lost now. I can’t see the point in anything. I’m self-employed and have no motivation to work. I’m swinging between several days of high anxiety and then falling into a hole of depression, and I’m not sleeping properly.
I just don’t know what is ‘normal’. My sister is not reacting this way (she lives in Australia with her family but was here at the end), and my stepmum lost her Mum a week before mine, and she’s just getting on with life quite easily, out playing tennis and lunching with friends. I just feel like there’s something wrong with me and I’m afraid I’ll never feel ok again.
Has anyone else experienced this? I can’t envisage being happy again