I’m sorry you had a rubbish day. It’s awful and lonely missing someone important who we need in a way only they could ever fulfill… worse than I imagined. I hope you can have some better hours somehow.
Bless you! I remember how it felt when I lost my mum in 1993 so I can tell you it does get more bearable. I feel for you, I really do.
Keep safe and well.
Hugs AnnR xx