Thank you for your replies it helps to know that what we share can maybe help others.
When I read over anything I’ve put before submitting it , it sometimes looks as if I’m reading someone else post - It doesn’t seem like it’s me somehow, things that I discuss, research etc ,were so not me before ,I realise how much losing my guy has changed my outlook on so much , like I’ve become much more open minded in my efforts to feel that Dave is still around - It is helping , just strange at the same time, the belief that he is still around helps to keep me strong - I still write to him some evenings which also helps.
I believe I had some proof he was around today and it made me laugh.
Dave was never one for over the top hugs, kisses or soppy films - I thought about this when he passed. Had I known what was going to happen that awful morning i’d have hugged him tight the night prior and never let go - then I smiled because I realised I wouldn’t because he’d have fought his way out of it , he didn’t mind a hug, but not for too long , so today I was practising the guided meditation to feel close to him ,I felt relaxed I visualised him standing there as I hugged him, then after about 1 minute a pneumatic drill was started outside my house and within minutes of that starting my youngest son (mid 30’s) banged on the door and shouted through the letter box " Just wanted to drive round to check that you’re ok Ma and see if you need anything" " I’m fine thanks " and off he went back home, as the drill continued on outside - I just started laughing and gave up on the meditation - He’d found his way out of that one as well x
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Thank you Elly, that has made me not just smile but laugh. xx
Thanks for your reply Jobar -
We need things that we can laugh about - Glad it’s given you a laugh as well - That was just so him! x