getting hit hard today and a couple of previous days. The loneliness is almost overwhelming. signed up to one of those widows and widowers chat sites but haven’t had any responses at all. tomorrow will be the first VD in 44 years I’m on my own and is also my step daughters birthday. to top that I think I’ve got a touch of widows fire and I’m just having melt down after meltdown. Saudi will be 10 months. I have roses and a card and will go to the cemetery tomorrow but this is coming close to more than I can take. I don’t want to bother the family especially with the birthday tomorrow and I’m just sitting here weeping and weeping
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I know how you feel. I seem to want to get out of the house as I just feel lonely. Even when I go to supermarket I feel sad and on the edge of a breakdown. My wife died in January so with two grown up daughters it is a shock to the system. I have gone back to work as it is good to see people but I am always on the brink of tears but managing to hold it back. I work for a big company with private health so I am starting counselling tomorrow. It may be too soon but let’s see Hope you feel better. Spring is on the way and that is my favourite time of year Goid luck
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I’m so sorry for your loss I lost my partner to brain cancer in December he was the love of my life. It’s ok to cry when you need to you need to let it out and not bottle it up. Private message if you ever need a chat I’m always here 
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I’m so sorry. Sent you a PM
I know how you feel, this would have been our 44th VD, my daughters birthday is the day after, it is heartbreaking, every song that I hear seems to bring back a memory, I lie here in tears most nights, it’s been 19 months & I still lay here tears rolling down my cheeks, my beautiful wife and soul mate