I lost both my parents at the beginning of the year. My dad took his life in feb 5 days after my birthday. My mom lost her short fight with cancer in April.
They were separate and had been for 25+ years.
My mom was my rock and i was a proper mommys boy, she would of been the person i would of gone to and vented about my dads situation, which hurts even more.
My dad wasn’t a bad dad but wasn’t the best either he let me and my sister down many times and we often felt second best to our step brother and sister, my main draw to my dad was football and we were massive birmingham city fans but i have lost all love for the sport since my dad did what he did.
I feel lost and detached from my whole life.
its putting pressure on my wife and affecting our communication.
Any suggestions??