I want to share my story so here goes…
at the age of 25 I lost 2 massive influencers in my life and both were unexpected in different ways in September 2020 I rang my Granda as usual as I did every morning and he was fine he was “ Granda “ you know? Going for his paper and might go for a walk later on… as I got on with my day I felt a pit in my stomach as if I hadn’t done something or something wasn’t right. Not thinking anything of it I sat in the garden in the sun. As I came in and checked my phone I realised I had 2 missed calls of my mam I rang her back there was no answer… yet again thinking nothing of it I left it… she rang me back and I answered saying hello sorry I missed you ringing was in the garden all she said was darling it’s Granda me thinking he had fallen or something I instantly asked is he ok? What’s happened? She said no he’s gone… I fell to the floor screaming and crying begging it not to be true… but it was…
Following that in January 2021 I rang my dad yet again as usual as he lived in London he answerd and he didn’t sound too good so I asked are you ok dad you don’t sound too good… he then told me he had COVID… but that he was going to be ok I told him to rest and I’d message him in the morning… I did and he said he was feeling a little better and the same the day after that… on the Thursday I got a message he had been took into hospital to help his breathing for the next week he got worse and worse to the point the only way of finding out how he was was ringing the hospital everyday twice a day… after 2 weeks in hospital they put him in a coma as his body wasn’t coping… he was on a ventilator and the doctors were draining his lungs every other hour… I then got the phone call every child dreads.it was time to say goodbye through FaceTime that was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life seeing him all wired up machines beeping and not knowing if he could even hear me… I expected a phone call through the night saying he had gone but I didn’t get it… he made it through the night… I had another phone call later on that next day after saying bye to him… he had a massive heart attack and passed away… it’s now hitting me really hard and I wanted to share what I had been through…