At the end on 2024 we was called to be by my mams bedside in hospital, she’d been in for what we called a normal visit, having only one kidney when ever she had an infection she needed IV antibiotics to help get it off but this visit wasn’t normal we was called to her bedside on 28th Dec to be told this time there was nothing they could do and they was asking her comfortable 
we was all devastated, I was my mams Carer so most days revolved around mam. The day my mam went on to palliative care my uncle her brother also went onto palliative care which ment we was to loose both very close to each other. I was at hospital every night and on the 4th Jan she took her last breath at 6.00am after going into organ failure shed held on as much as she could, I am one of 4 children im the youngest to say I was heartbroken is an understatement my siblings knew how ill she was and left me to be alone with mam at that crucial time. They will never get that time back but everytime I close my eyes im back in that room. My Uncle died 4 days later exactly 1 month after he had passed his wife passed away and then a very close family friend died 4 weeks later so as you can imagine the start of 2025 wasn’t the best 
i am really struggling to still make sense of what has happened not to mention I still have lots of questions and im still so angry at my siblings 
any help would be greatly recieved xx
Hello @Debbs82,
I’m Alex, and I just wanted to reach out and say how truly sorry I am that you’re going through so much. Experiencing multiple losses can feel incredibly heavy, and it’s completely understandable if you’re finding it hard to cope right now. Please know that you’re not alone in feeling this way.
Many people in our community have faced more than one bereavement, and while every experience is unique, there can be comfort in hearing from others who understand the exhaustion that can come with grieving more than one person. You might find it helpful to read through some of their posts here.
This community is here for you - whether you want to talk, ask questions, or simply be heard. You are not alone.
Take good care 
Alex
Hi Debbs, I am so sorry for all of the traumatic losses you have had to face in such a short space of time. Do you have any family or friends you can speak to? I can understand your anger towards your siblings, please take comfort in you being there for your mom. I was also there at the end for my mom, 27th Dec 2024, it carried such unimaginable pain. Until one of my closest friends said that in the sadness there is a great honour to have been there as others pass without company or totally unexpectedly etc…that is the only comfort I can take from this. Multiple losses can be very difficult to deal with, would you consider any type of counselling? Please know you aren’t alone on this journey and please reach out to others where you can. Take care.
I dont have anyone i can speak to about this my partner doesnt understand how much im hurting im trying to be strong for my kids but im secretly falling apart inside
Thank you Alex x
It is very difficult to try to explain to someone who doesn’t fully understand, the unimaginable pain that this loss brings. How old are your kids? My 7yr old son kept me going, was extremely hard at times, especially as he had his own questions I needed to answer and find his own way to grieve. With so many questions and anger that you feel, it seems like you really need to be able to talk it through with someone. Cruse Bereavement Support are also an excellent source of counselling/support. As are these discussions on here, they make you realise that you are not alone. Are there any local groups or anything online? Do you like writing, could you make a diary or journal and note down all of your thoughts and feelings, questions you don’t or won’t have answers for? Finding the best way for you to grieve takes time but is so important. I wish I could offer more help to you. x
My girls are 19 and 12 and was so close to my mam so we are all still feeling it tbh my partner last his dad in 2007 (as did i opposite end of the year) and his mam passed with covid in 2022 but hes tough and gets on with it, I cared for my mam so my first text on a morning was to make sure she’d got out of bed ok and last text at night to make sure shed got upstairs my whole world resolved around her I feel lost and genuinely dont know what im doing anymore. I have reached out to Cruise their is a 13 week waiting list but im on it now xx