Loosing my mum after 3 years of illness at 32 years old.

Hello everyone,

Firstly I hope today is a really good day for everyone!

I guess this is where I tell my story about my wee mum!!

I’m 32 and lost my mum back at the beginning of September 2024.

After quite a rough 3 years being poorly she decided that enough was enough and left my dad, sister and I with a massive hole in our hearts.

It’s a weird feeling… my mum finally wasn’t screaming in pain, wasn’t hurting, wasn’t having endless trips to the hospital and was finally at home when she passed with palliative care from the Marie curie and district nurses…

The weird feeling comes from when I found her and she had gone my first thought wasn’t sadness. It was relief, relief that she wasn’t as mentioned above screaming in pain for hours at a time, she was free of her pain, of feeling scared, of not being able to converse with anyone or even unable to eat or drink!!

A couple of months on though… I don’t feel like I’ve even started grieving… then I question why??

With this being said… I have all of this time now that my mum was my every single thought, would be okay if I left the house, the thought of not being able to go far away from the house incase she needed me, the fear of putting myself first because really she had to come first, the thought of being mad that I’d have to get up in the middle of the night to change her!!

I just don’t know what to do anymore!! I’m struggling!!

I’ve added a wee photo of us because she was just beautiful!!

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She was, thank you for sharing this with us @Rach2005 :blue_heart: I’m so sorry for the loss of your mum. It sounds like she was at the centre of your life and it’s completely understandable that you don’t know what to do with yourself anymore.

I just want to reassure you that the feelings you’re feeling are really normal, and you’re not alone. I’m sure someone will be along to share their support, but in the meantime, you might find our page on Losing a parent helpful to read.

Take care and keep reaching out,
Seaneen