Hi, I lost my husband to a brain aneurysm 12 years ago this month … after his death my mum and dad helped me immensely as I had three young children (15 mths, 3yes and 5yrs) . This year my Dad passed away in March and then in June my mum was diagnosed with ovarian cancer …sadly it was too late and she died at the beginning of August in a hospice .
Since she has passed I feel horrendously guilty looking back that I didn’t fight more for her … I was the one wanting her to go into a hospice as the hospital could no longer help and the continual checks and tube feeding and hospital life in general was doing more harm than good. It was only 6 weeks from diagnosis to her dying … at the time I was tearful and now I just feel nothing .
So my parents have died my husband has died … and I feel soooo alone . I have my sister but she’s not local and has her own family . I am trying to be positive … have joined a gym but I am just so lost .
I dont even know if this makes any sense … I feel like I should hurt more … cry more … but instead I just feel miserable .