Hi all
Im new to this and im just wanting to vent and get some help.
Im fully struggling with knowing that im loosing my mum to cancer, shes only recently been told shes got lung cancer and she refusing help as she feels like the chemo is only going to make her suffer more and she doesnt want any of us to watch her suffer more ( i am her youngest of 5 girls) shes only been given a few months at max and im fully struggling to come to terms with it.
Ive never been close with my mum as she wasn’t the best at bringing me up becuase all of her attention was on my sister who had special needs and who is down syndrome I dont resent this because I always knew she needed more support then me and i had a great god mother and sisters that made up for this.
Im struggling becuase I wish I had more time to make things better n change that we wasn’t close i actually feel like i need her more then ever and I know that is selfish but I wish we had an other year with her to make better memories and im scared that when she dies that me n my sisters will not be part of each other’s life’s ad much ad we are now.
She’s my mum and I need her and im fully scared of whats going to happen next. Im trying to act normal around my childern as they are young but im finding my self crying all the time and not be able to explain to them is hard my friend is moving in with me to help n support me which im greatful for but im just a mess and have no idea what to say or do hence why im here, been told talking to strangers helps with the grief and helps support n gives good advice. So im hopefully that you can share your stories and advice with me to get me through what I can only describe as the worst and hardest and awful time in my life
Thank you in advance