Loosing my queen my best 🧡

Losing a parent
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Hi out there if anyone is reading this, my queen, my mum passed away a week before Christmas and my world just stopped right there on that day, I’m stuck in limbo or denial as in my head it’s not really happened, mums gone away somewhere, then it starts to creep.in the reality of it all and my stomach sinks, brain goes on a.loop with everything that happened, I went to the chapel.of rest and was not my mum laying there, mum looked awful but I try pu this image out my mind and focus on when we layed together and mum passed, mum really looked like she was just sleeping all snuggled and curled up. I can’t even think about the burial right now all inaant is to just be back together with her, laying together mum stroking my head and me her hands, I’m on a roller coaster I can’t get off and all inwanna do is scream !!!

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Hi @Carmbino,

Thank you for bravely reaching out. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. You are not alone. I’m not sure if you’ve seen our Losing a parent category. But there you can connect with other members who are living with grief after losing a parent.

I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support to you. In the meantime, you might find these Sue Ryder resources helpful to read.

I hope you find the community to be a support to you. Take good care and keep reaching out :blue_heart:

Alex

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Hi, my mam also passed the week before Christmas and I also feel like I’ve been going crazy. Thanks for sharing, I feel less alone!!! We haven’t had the funeral yet with Christmas and New Years getting in the way of organising. I can’t believe I still can’t believe it either. Sending big hugs x

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Hiya I’m.so.sorry for your loss, even though we say those words they feel of little comfort I know x

We have also not had the funeral yet won’t be till Feb so we’re all stuck in limbo. Like u I can’t believe it’s happened :pensive_face: all we can do is put one foot forward even at times when we’re feeling stuck. Grief is a strange rollercoaster but it’s our ride and we scream where we need to xx

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Hi sleepy bear,

How are you feeling, just thought I’d reach out, xx

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Hey @Carmbino , thanks for checking in x Time has passed and things are less intense but I’m still in my little grief bubble. i found myself googling “when does the random crying stop with grief” the other day haha so still very much on this roller coaster. i am managing a little better to be honest, i still feel a bit haunted by grief and still think about the final few weeks of my mam’s life.

Would be lovely to hear how you have been getting on. How did the funeral go?

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Hi sleepybear
Its jyst nice when random.people check in as sadley we all got grief and loss in common.
I also use google to look random things about grief and when we supposed to be alright, but in reality as you say the grief bubble is comforting and cruel at the same time. Almost feeling guilty for the good days i have have to be honest not many good days right now.
Its good that its not so intense for you maybe time is a good healer im not sure.
The funeral went as well as they can go, very small and personal but mum would of been proud of what we all.did. i guess im in the denial part as ive gone through it but its for someone else not my mum, at some point im sure this will all.kick in and acceptance :relieved_face: but dont think.ill ever except they both gone now.
I guess the hardest part for us is accepting the life that now is without them in it.
Shame we can all burst this bubble and normal.life return hey x

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Hiya, glad to hear the funeral went as well as it could go. It sounds like it was well suited to your mum and sounds very her :heart:

I’m not sure im fully at acceptance tbh. Im still having crying days that feel s**t but they crying sessions are getting slightly further apart and longer in between…… having just cried a few days in a row :joy: what are you going through right now?