Hi all-
Its been a long 5 years since my dad passed away. He was 48 years old and misdiagnosed/neglected by the NHS. He had stage 4 pancreatic cancer.
Its been a real struggle- i have people i can talk to but dont want to burden them with my problems so i thought id try on here, except i dont even know how to start infact i feel nothing but numb writing this.
Anyway- i wish you all the best
That is so sad, I’m so sorry. My school friend’s dad had a similar fate. He was a dentist, went to his GP suspecting prostate cancer, was told it was highly unlikely, didn’t get tested, and died. My dad was seen by the same surgery 7 times with symptoms of ischemic heart disease which they didn’t diagnose, and he died of a cardiac arrest.
We need to come together as a country to reject the poor standard of care.
But you’ll have other things on your mind, I’m sure 
. Dad was our rock, too. He continues to guide me, but I’ve had to step into his shoes and look after myself, my mum, my brother (who he and we think has autism, and has a physical disability) and, at times, but less so, my sister. I guess one is just grinning and bearing it. But also actively empowering family members into becoming more independent. My brother says that his attitude has changed from “I can’t manage that.” to “I can manage that but I’m not looking forward to it.” which is great progress in my opinion.
I think you should give your friends the opportunity to support you as well as posting on here. They may be waiting for an opportunity. It sounds as though they care a lot .
It is four years since my Dad passed and I still find the circumstances around his death very difficult. It still makes me sad and angry that he wasn’t given the care he needed and deserved in hospital.
Time has made it easier to cope, or at least live with the loss, but I still think of him every day and at times a wave of grief hits and I miss him so much
I do think you should talk to someone you trust. It is hard to keep all your feelings hidden. Just because it has been a few years doesn’t mean that grief goes away
Take care