I have never met my mum and dad. My grandma was my mum and brought me up for the first 23years of my life. However she was diagnosed with terminal cancer in 2019 and sadly died in March 2019. The last few years of her life when i nevber knew there was anything wrong with her i always said to her that when she died i wanted to go with her, that i would be lost with her and i would struggle to much. She always told me to grow up and that i would be fine. I really wish i had been and was the truth is i havent been fine.
Before her death i was diagnosed Anxiety and Depression. After her death diagnosed Complex PTSD, Atypical Autism and Foetal Alcohol Syndrome.
This was excaberated by people taking advantage, physically financially and sexually abusing me. I just wish i had her back so that things would get easier.
That is the short version of whats went on and how i feel
Due to the financial abuse i am really struggling with a number of things and could do with some help and advice irgently