My dad passed away on the 17th July from a combination of cancer and pneumonia. At the time he was in a care home after spending multiple weeks in hospital.
Due to the pandemic, I got to see him briefly in the hospital although he was sedated at the time and not at all while in the care home.
I have never found it easy to process my emotions and I’m struggling with him not being here. Instead of remembering the good times (which everyone tells me I should) all I see when I close my eyes at night or when my mind drifts to him during the day is him, lying in his hospital bed, sedated.
It’s starting to impact on my family life and my work as I’m not sleeping properly at all and my GP has been very little help.
Desperately looking for help and suggestions of how to start coming to terms with everything.