In December 2022 I lost my Dad, my safe space, my calm, my best friend after 3 months of us discovering he was extremely ill with Cardiomyopathy. Ever since then I felt this overwhelming feeling of emptiness engulf me. Grief is such a lonely experience and although I do have family around me, my Dad wasn’t their Dad. Although he may have been their husband/brother, he was my Dad and my experience doesn’t feel the same as anyone else’s. He’ll never get to walk me down the isle, he’ll never meet any future grandchildren I might have one day. There was still so much we had to experience together and now that’s all been taken away from me. I’m so angry. Grief sucks!
Does anyone else feel like their talking therapy makes them feel 1000x worse? I’m coming towards the end of my sessions now and last week’s was the hardest yet. It made me physically ill by the end of it and I do believe it was down to a trauma response and now I’m hesitant to continue!
