I have not.beaten myself up about not blowing the candle out but would have been devestated if i had burnt the house down it was one of the things that paul wanted to make sure that i was safe and the house was paid off i will just have to try and slow my brain down thats easier said than done i have always been the same would make a shopping list go shopping and leave the list at home i cannot even blame the change of life as when that happened to.me we never even new i had no symptons and i know people will think i am lucky but did not feel like that at the time as i was young when it all started .
There were many close calls for me at the early stages as well. For one I nearly choked on food and another I broke a rib when I fainted in the shower. Both I managed alone. I put in a lot of safety protocols for myself afterward. No candles would be a suggestion. I have electric light only except the fireplace which has been inspected and unused for now. I have a nice strand of slow twinkle lights for a holiday tree I put on the hearth for when I want to feel safe as well as calm. Incense may be helpful instead.
I think i just need to be more careful in jan 2022 my car got written off with me in it i was so upset as it was the money we put away for me to buy a car when anything happened to paul and i got a.broken rib then i suppose i was lucky to walk away with just a broken rib my nephew was great with me picking me up from the accident and then bieng there when the assesor said it was written off i got another car but it did knock my confidence at nightime ,why is it when our husbands where here everything was great now they are gone everything falls apart wish i knew the answer to that one
My husband made everything worse. And when I realized that after I was released from the hospital I passed out in the shower and broke my rib. Different circumstances. Also I had to heal my rib on my own. My husband would have been as useful as a dirty rag in an emergency. Not the same situation. However I am sorry this occurred for you and that you feel your loved one would have made it better for you.
Sorry that your husband would not be any good to you in that time that we need them after the accident i thought to myself what would paul say to me and he would have said sarah get back in that car and drive do not let this put you off so when i got.my courtsey car i made myself go out in it just like paul would have wanted me too he was the strong one and that is what i miss him his strenght
