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Here i am again wide awake with no one to talk to oh how I miss my husband my birthday is coming up at the end of the month and I would love to go out somewhere for a meal or even afternoon tea there is a lovely place near me that I would love to go to called maggies tea room as they do gluten free but I have never been as I cannot do it on my own sit there on my own feeling like billy no mates and feeling everybody is looking at me oh how I wish he was here but he is not no flowers or cards anymore from him it is a lonely road to be on and how I wish I was not on it at all
Sarah
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Heya Sarah, I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my dad last week and watching my mum grieve has been horrible. He was really sick on Valentine’s Day, Mother’s Day is coming up and it won’t be the same, Father’s Day, birthdays. It is super daunting because this has happened to us so recently and it was a very quick decline. I don’t have any advice or suggestions and can’t offer support. But, I just wanted to say I am so sorry. Watching my mum grieve the love of her life (they met as teenagers - married for 22 years) has been heart breaking 
I suppose I should count myself lucky as I’ve been out for coffee and food with friends and family. It’s really not the same as being with the person you loved, and who was your soulmate though. I really envy couples, I hate being single, and understand how you feel. Take care.
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Your mum is so new to this but she will be hurting so.much I know that my heart broke 
into a million pieces that night and it is still breaking I met Paul when I was 17 he was 20 it was a.blind date we had never met or seen each other before we fell in love at first site and where inserprebable we where married at 19 and 21 then where together for 44yrs I just wish I had more time with him your mum needs a lot off time and understanding and let her cry she needs to she lost the love of her live and give her the biggest.hug it is really so hard I should know 
Sarah
I know how you feel lost my partner in November from lung cancer he didn’t have a good passing so that is so upsetting I hate weekends when I get most lonely I hear a sad song and I get upset I still wake up 3 times every night I’m surrounded by his photos I dont know if that’s good or bad I cant believe I’m never going to see him again and I do have a good family handful of friends but I’m still very lonely so you are not alone in your pain and loneliness I feel your pain
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You are lucky you have some people in your live i have one nephew that takes.me out twice a.month to the pub for a meal and then costa coffee but apart from that I have no one what I would want is a.cuddle my nephew gives me a.kiss and a.cuddle but is the middle.of the.night you wake.up and they are not.there and you just want that cuddle why does it all have to be this hard
Sarah
I’m lucky to have people in my life for which I’m grateful but you meet up for a couple of hours they say how’s things yeh I say I’m getting there with a brave face but really I’m not but who wants to here that all the while I go home to an empty house put my electric blanket on at 530 bed at 630 watch tv till I fall asleep ive just started counselling I chose a group one as I wanted to hear other people’s stories but booked up so they suggested one to one not going great as I have to talk the whole hour so just repeat his awful last few days when he was in agony couldn’t tell him how much I loved him all his last wishes I would carry out etc couldn’t say goodbye coz I couldn’t see him at the end was deverstated so the counselling I relive it all over again so after next one I may wait till a group session becomes available I guess we all grieve in different ways …it’s nice you get to go out with your nephew and not totally on your own but even I do have more than one person I see it’s painful to put on brave face all the time but we do dont we just so we dont put friends or family in the position when they dont know what to say to us or worry if we’re always sad and miserable they’ll stop meeting up coz they just dont know what to say …it’s a cruel world I hope you can meet some new friends maybe a meeting in your area but you are not alone and I do feel for you honestly…love mo