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I am awake again when is it my turn to go i need to be with Paul i hate this life without him here at my side everybody thinks she is OK when I am not i want to be with him away from all if this where I could be happy again i was never built to be on my own i was meant to have some one in my life I know that know I crave his love and attention that he gave me everybody thinks Paul was a poorly man sarah I know he needed me but I needed him more that’s what nobody gets i really needed him and if I can’t have him then let me go to the man that gave me all the love I needed something I will never have again i think men in this world want a young slim good looking woman they never want a fat frumpy old one of there own age why the hell would they so that’s what I think me just useless old lady no longer needed please god let me go to Paul please 
Sarah
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Hi Sarah
I’m sorry to hear how much pain you are going through. I think you would be surprised how many people are lonely and would love to share their lives but you can’t expect them to arrive at your door. You have to get out and find a group you would feel comfortable joining. Unfortunately their are so many lonely people me included as I have no friends or family at least in this country who could help. I’m trying to get out and I’ve joined a bereavement group. If you had told me to join a group when my wife was with me I would have laughed but she isn’t so I have to change.
I hope you find the strength you need
Tom
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Hi Tom
I know what you are saying but I think a bereavement group would be to much for me I am the softest person out there and would take on everyone else’s grief plus people don’t need to hear my sad story its just how I feel I am sorry you have no friends in this country which is why we need this site
Sarah
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I’m in Spain. If can’t face a bereavement group maybe there is something else close you could try. England is normally very good for groups and hobbies etc. I hope you find something. We need to change as our situation won’t unfortunately.
Lots of strength
Tom
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Hi Sarah
I’m sorry your feeling this way, we all do at times. Tom is right, we have to force ourselves to get out and meet new people. You will be surprised how lovely the people at these groups are when you find the right one.
I think it’s about acceptance. This is our life now, one we didn’t want. I hate it and miss my husband just like you.
One step at a time, look for a bereavement group, on the day get ready to go, if your having an okay day then go. If you don’t like it or change your mind when you get there go home. Then try again. The people I’ve spoken to at these groups have talked about alsorts things, you don’t need to take in their worries too. Please give it a go, talking helps.
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