Hi
I am having a bad day today as at the end of the month is my birthday and I do not.know what I am going to do on that day as I will not.ask.never will ask anyone to go out with me as I only have family and they are all busy I will not see a soul on my birthday and I will be lucky if I get one card my family do not do cards so they say but they did yesterday for my nephew is it just me bieng silly I would just love all the cards off them it would make me so happy and this year myself and Paul would be married 50yrs I would like to do something for that but they would find me silly as I mentioned it last night and they just stared at me as if I had two heads what is so wrong about wanting to celebrate our big day even if paul is not here it could be done in his honour as we did not get to celebrate at his funeral because of covid and I think this would be a nice thing to do but I cannot do this on my own oh how I miss you.paul my life is not or ever will be the same without you and I am finding this year so hard for me .
Sarah 