Losing my husband

Losing a partner
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Hi

I.never thought.my life was going to change so dramatically in 5yrs lost my husband the 2yrs later my brother in law another guy who checked up on me gone then not.long.after I got.a.call in the January that my hisbands nephew whom I was close to had been found dead heart problems he was only 51 and my techno guy gone :cry: then about a week after.my stepmum rang and told.me my dad had died :cry: I could.not.take.anymore 4 men in my life gone in four years I was heartbroken two of them where the biggest part of my life my husband and my dad I was a real daddy’s girl did not know my mum then I came on here and there was this guy that talked to me and he was great I felt as though I had someone in my life again even if it was through here then I got panicky and thought what if I lose him my heart could not stand it even although it was just.talking so I did the.one thing I should not have.done.and.pushed him away I thought it was the best.thing to do now I am totally devastated at what I have done to this.kind wonderful man that took time to talk to me I hope.he.reads this on here and accepts my heartfelt apologies if I have caused you.any upset just know mine is tenfold I think it is my coping mechanism not a very good.one.but I have.had.a.lot of pain in 5yrs and I am so scared of more :cry: I am so sorry if I ever hurt you or caused you any pain I never meant to just know I am in pain now :cry: :broken_heart: and I pray you will forgive me ,I am not.putting any names on here.as.this.person will now.how.i mean I am so sorry :disappointed_face: :pensive_face:

Sweetlady

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Hi @Sweetlady

Losing your husband and, in addition, so many other persons close to you is an absolute nightmare.
No wonder that you are severely traumatized.
I could Imagine that many contradicting emotionslos are swirling around in your mind.

Regarding that man whom you pushed away and want to apologize to, is there any way for you to contact him?

If yes, just explain yourself like you did in your post and I’m quite sure that he will understand.

It’s most important that you take good care of yourself!

Your husband is looking out for you from up above and he wants the best for you until you will be reunited again at a later time.

All of us in here have to fight one of the hardest struggles ever, a struggle with sadness, despair and loneliness.

But, like millions of people in the past, we have to and will manage and prevail.

Please take good care of yourself and stay safe!

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