Hi
I have not been very well this week and I have missed my husband so much i was in bed this afternoon and I woke up.and no paul to give me a cuddle and just hold me I hate feeling like this all the time I have been without him for 5yrs now and I thought my feelings for him would have stopped 
but I do miss him there is no one in my life the highlight of one week is seeing my nephew for a meal and a coffee I cannot show him how I feel without it causing a chain reaction for about 2weeks then they go back to normal and the second week is seeing my gardener and that is it when people come and then leave there is that emptiness and loniness all over again this is the most horrible bit about all of this is never having paul in my life any more and not knowing how to cope with it I just never thought I would have to not so young well I feel young I was 63 when paul passed now I feel.like I have aged ten years and on my own I do not know how other people cope with it because I am not coping at all .
Sweetlady
Hello, sweetlady, sorry to hear you are still having a hard time. Do you attend church? Sometimes you can make good friends with people from church, I know i have, and they’ve been so kind to me, they reach out every day to at least say hello. Or any hobbies you may have, my dear friend Karen also lost her husband and she got involved with a group of ladies that all sew, so they get together and sew for charity. Sending you lots of hugs my friend 
Hi light mary
Thank you for thinking of me I am just having a hard time at the moment and for you to say my friend to me I feel.i am nobody’s friend not even on here I came on and saw your message and I had to answer you I was going to stay off here as I am just to low at this moment I am sorry 
Sweetlady
Hello my friend, I know how you feel, I feel like that sometimes, I was going to meet a friend for lunch the other day but I canceled because I didn’t want to go out, sometimes we have to be kind to ourselves, I think we are the only ones that can do that, I’m sure our husbands would want the best for us, God bless you my friend, will be praying for you