Losing my husband

Losing a partner
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Hi

I have never felt this bad as i feel today so alone no one to talk to all i am doing is crying the last time i felt this low was when my gp sent me into hospital he new i did not want to go but my heart was beating to fast abd he said we need to slow it down i had nobody with me and when they put me on a ward i still had nobody to visit me and it made me sad as when i was visiting paul my husband i would see older men with nobody and my heart would go out to them i would offer to bring them a newspaper in i have a big soft heart and paul used to say to me it will bite you in the bum someday well that day cane wgen i was in hospital and my family where all at work so could see nobody till the weekend and thats when it hit me nobody with a heart as big and soft as mine was there for me it made me sad to think nobody has time for others nowadays how sad is that to me very sad cery sad indeed people say to you ,you will get your reward in heaven what good is that when u am dead i need it now when i am still alive .
Sweetlady

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Oh bless you, please don’t feel alone, you are not alone, although I cannot be with you, I am sending so much love and support your way, please go to see your GP if this is the same feeling you had before, they will be able to help in some way, it’s hard to be so loving and there for everyone else and then when you are in need you feel neglected, I completely understand, but please take comfort in knowing how many people you have helped along the way with just that small act of kindness, you may have been exactly what someone needed at a dark point in their life

Please stay strong you can get through this a day at a time :heart: :heart:

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