So it’s been 6 months since I lost my mum. Saying I lost her, always makes me think I can find her. I’m counting the days, weeks, months as if I’m counting down until i see her, although I know that’s not possible. There will always be a massive hole In my heart, everything I am is because of her, she is a massive part of me, now I have a massive part of myself missing. Without her I’m not myself and I don’t see how that will ever change. 
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Very sorry for your loss. I lost my mum 6 weeks ago and I miss her so much. Like you I count the days and weeks and it has occurred to me how odd that is. Usually we count things that are positive or exciting. Like how many weeks old a baby is, how many weeks until Christmas. Yet we also torment ourselves with an exact knowledge of the growing amount of time since they were last here. How I wish it was a countdown to seeing her again! I also feel that a huge part of me has gone. Mum was my everything and she gave me the strength to get through each day with her advice and love. Now I feel empty and adrift. Sorry that is not much help but I wanted you to know you are not alone in how you feel.
Hi @Ash27
I too lost my Mum 8 weeks ago and I really feel for you and what you are going through. I’m so sorry that your lost your Mum and best friend and many of us on here will know just how you are feeling.
The hole that they leave in your life is far bigger than anyone could ever imagine and it’s so hard to get on and do things when your life feels so empty.
Some days are not quite as bad as others, and eventually you do find yourself able to do small things - until you remember what has happened and the tears come. I’m sorry I’m not much help either, but I just wanted you to know that you are not alone, and you will get plenty of comfort and support from others on this site. I find it helps me no end to know that I’m not going through this on my own and that others do understand and want to help. And you are not judged in any way here, like you might be in your everyday life.
All I can say is do what you can do, when you can do it, and take it a day, an hour or even a minute at a time. There’s no rush, your grief is unique to you and only you know how you feel.
Look after yourself and I hope you have a good support group of family and friends around you.