Where do I begin 5 weeks ago I lost my mum in the most tragic of circumstances this year she had been poorly on and off and collapsed in May and September back and forth to doctors they didn’t know what was wrong so decided to do more tests. On 23rd of October I had the worst phone call of my life my dad phoned me screaming down phone your mum has collapsed and split her head wide open their blood everywhere I raced upto their house. Their was 6 paramedics she was rushed to hospital they found a huge bleed on her brain. They operated and it was successful so I thought their was hope. But within 2 days they found another bleed she was in ICU tubes all out of her and monitors everywhere. We were told their was nothing more they could do for my mum as she would be in a vegetated state if they operated again. So we made the decision to let her go in peace she died on 27th October we found out also she had breast cancer and we didn’t know. I am absolutely heartbroken and really struggling my mum was my best friend how do I carry on without her. The pain is unbearable i just keep crying i wasnt ready to lose my mum im having nightmares and not sleeping over this i just cant process what’s happened.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your lovely mum. My dear mum and best friend died a month before yours and although she had a cancer diagnosis for a long time, she only declined this year and I still didn’t think she would die. I can’t comprehend it has happened or accept it. I have days when I think I am doing ok and then it hits and I am crying uncontrollably again. Like you I am 44 and the thought of years ahead without her is unbearable. Sending strength. Feel free to message.
Im sorry for your loss of your lovely mom too. Thank you for message i know exactly how you are feeling I never thought I would ever lose my mom lived in denial I suppose its so easy to think your parents will live forever but unfortunately life is cruel at times . I dont know the answers in how we can move forward as like you I am finding it unbearably hard as she was also my complete network with my daughter as she got Autism now I just feel so alone. Sending you strength too at this very difficult time.