Lost mum in February I can’t seem to move on! The memories of her passing haunt me every day. When I go to sleep I relive her death. When I think about her it’s like I’m being punched in the stomach. I’m Absolutely heartbroken. She was not just my mum am she was my best friend we did so much together I told her everything I looked to her for advice. I don’t want to feel sad all the time but I do, life’s just not the same anymore.
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I’m so sorry for your loss xx
I lost my mam in June and feel exactly as you do. I was with her when she passed and relive it every time I close my eyes. I haven’t had a day without crying in months and months and feel emotionally and physically drained. I lived with her most of my life and cared for her for many years. We were very close, even though we also had out arguments and bad times, but i can’t deal with losing her at all. It’s completely changed my life and the way I view everything. I lost a part of me that night and I will never have it back. Nothing will ever be the same, and I do all I can to avoid social situations. I just want to be at home. I don’t want to smile and pretend to be ok when I have fallen apart. I hate seeing the world going on around me like nothing has happened. I know people say that’s life, but I can’t be philosophical about it all.
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June wow not long ago at all, I’m so sorry. It’s so hard to have to just carry on isn’t it! One thing I have realised I’m not as scared to die anymore knowing I’ll be with mum again. I know that seems dark and I’m not planning on leaving any time soon but just to know she’ll be waiting for me makes me feel better. I dreamt about her last night too makes me not want to wake up. Xx
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Sorry for your loss.. I jus lost my mum in July. She was living 2 hours away and she died during the heatwave we had around end June beginning of July she was there 17 days as we were on holiday for my sons birthday which we spoke to her while there. She also shuts off when wimbolden comes on so she quite often won’t reply. We got back no reply so I sent police to do a welfare check and they found her heavily decomposed due to heat and how long she’d been there. I’ll be honest feels like gossip to me I’m not in denial I am sad but I’m so disconnected nothing about it feels tangable..