Losing my mum

It’s been a year and nearly 2 months since my my got killed, I feel like I have been drowning the whole time and I feel sick always. I miss her with everything I have and on some days my heart thinks she’s just gone away and she’s coming back but I’m 22, I know how this works, I know she’s not coming back. My heart hurts so bad that on days I don’t even want to be here. I feel like things are never going to be ok again. How do I stop this feeling that she’s coming back because it hurts a thousand times all over again


Hello @Jadea,

I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.

I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share a few Sue Ryder resources with you that might be helpful.

You may also want to contact Support after Murder and Manslaughter. They support people whose loved ones have been killed. They trained volunteers who can provide 1-1 support for as long as you need it. You can contact then on info@samm.org.uk, phone them on 0121 472 2912 or text them on 07342 888570.

I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.

Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.

Take good care,