I’m haunted by memories of Helen’s last three days In the hospital the nurses had permitted me to stay the doctors had told me there was no hope and I had to let her go I stayed with her for three days and nights she never knew she wasn’t coming home I never told her I didn’t know It would be her final night I was helping the nurses to roll her to make more comfortable we rolled her toward me she said I can’t breathe Johnny and I kept telling her youre, Ok everything’s going be fine desperately trying to stop the tears the nurses advised me to get some sleep In the guest waiting room and they’d call me If anything should happen they called me, early hours of the morning get to her fast she going they said but when I got there she was gone and I could tell she’d been gone for quite some time I should have been holding her hand she died and I believe there was nobody with her and that I can’t forget or forgive myself
Hi. I feel your pain . My husband also died alone . I stupidly went home . Thinking he would be looked after at hospital . I asked them to phone me if any change . They phoned half seven on morning . I was there in ten minutes . But he had already died . I will never forgive my self . I just can’t . We were together 43 years married 39 years . I have to exsist now with this regret and always will . I love and miss him more and more each day . But I feel like I totaly failed him . It’s a year next week . A year of heartbreak . Lonliness. And sadness . Xtake carex
Im so sorry to for your loss, and It doesn’t matter what anyone says sadly there’s nothing that can make you feel better, sometimes I think people who work In hospitals are so used to people dying that they don’t feel it , they become Immune to all they don’t see the pain of losing a loved one unless It here own, been told by lots of people my wife would have wanted it to be that way me not there, but I know that’s not true together forever and always we pledged and I failed her and that hurt will never go away
I know . We have to try and live with the devastation of not having our partners as well as the guilt . I find it so hard but I think it’s what I deserve . Just hope he forgives me . And one day I will be back in his loving arms where I belong . Thinking of you . Xtake carex
I’m sure he forgives you and my wife forgives me, but It’s your own quilt that’s the problem, I pray that you find his arms again and thank you for listening to me, sometimes it’s hard to go unheard
You take care of yourself