I am having a bad night/morning so far i have not been able to sleep at all miss paul so much i never thought i could miss someome so much as i miss him everything seems to be hiting me hard this year and i cannot stop crying earlier today i had a nieghbour come over to help me.put some video doorbells up i am no good at drilling so she did that for me ir was so kind of her to help useless me i felt great having her there to talk to and still felt om after she left but then the darkness came and you shut the blinds and the sadness comes back you would think after 5yrs i would be better well i am not i miss him his voice even my dads voice i think it must be a mans vouce i miss as it has this calming effect on me it makes me feel safe again and i kniw i will never have that again in my life this is so.bloody hard and unfair
Same here, I always wake up at about 3am and the overwhelming sadness and desperation hits me, that my Ray is gone forever. I really can’t be bothered with anything. Nobody but us has any idea what this hell is like. He was my world and nothing makes any sense anymore. It’s only been 2 months and I can’t see down the line at all. I don’t want to go on for years without him. I miss him desperately
I lost the love of my life just over 3 weeks ago , and it was his funeral this week . I feel so lost and overwhelmed with everything that I need to do . I am worried about everything at the moment and I find it so difficult to sleep . There’s only me and the dog in the house and it feels so big and empty . I know it’s early days but I can’t imagine life without him . Thank you for reading x
Hi peg 2
I wish i could say it gets better but it has not for me as we where so.close even my brother says that paul worshiped the ground that i walked i also new.that and rhat is why i miss him so.much i wish i knew why this had to.happen