Hi my first post ,
I lost my mum in February, she was my everything, I was pregnant when she passed away I gave birth to my baby girl in July after having 2 miscarriages. I know all my wanted was to see me hold my own baby , christmas is coming up and I dont really know how to survive it , It will be my babies first Xmas and I want to try and make it special for her but im really struggling to see how I will get through it
Hi @Rroberts ,
Thank you for bravely reaching out. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. You are not alone. I’m not sure if you’ve seen our Losing a parent category. But there you can connect with other members who are living with grief after losing a parent.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support to you. In the meantime, you might find these Sue Ryder resources helpful to read.
Our Losing a parent page talks through some of the emotions you may be experiencing
Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through
Holidays and special occasions can be an especially painful time - and often even more so when they’re the ‘firsts’. Please know that there is lots of support available if you need it. We have advice and support on coping with grief at Christmas at Coping with grief at Christmas | Sue Ryder.
I hope you find the community to be a support to you.
Take good care and keep reaching out 
Alex