I lost my dad on the 23rd April this year he was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukaemia at the end of January this year with a 3 month expectancy he also had myeloma for 20yrs and I’m struggle with everything as I watched my dad dying in front of me it brought back memories of my mum die in front of me 6yrs ago I wasn’t with him when he died and didn’t get the chance to say I loved him at his end of life 
I’m struggling with the loneliness I’ve had no counselling to deal with my bereavement which is very frustrating
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Hi, there are various resources offered by Sue Ryder to help with managing grief, have a look… This forum is useful too as when you read the posts you’ll see that you aren’t alone. There are lots of us all trying to manage our experiences of grief. I didn’t get the chance to say goodbye to my Mum either so I wrote a very long letter with everything I wanted to say. Writing down your thoughts might help you to process them, you’ve made a start with your post here. Keep going… best wishes xx
Oh Morgan…how I feel your pain…I have only just lost my wonderful Dad, and just arranging a funeral… So many memories…seeing a loved one grow frail is soul destroying…I’ve been by dad’s side since dear mum passed away 12 years ago…it all comes flooding back…
I’m carrying Dad in my heart…The full impact will hit me soon…and I will miss my dearest Dad, my truest friend…so dreadfully, x
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