Thank you for your message.
I got on ok back at work this week but felt so awful today, a big wave of distress and sadness. Couldn’t stop crying this evening. Think it is the thought of the funeral on Tuesday, feeling very nervous now about it.
Xx
Hi @Jenny21
You poor thing, it’s so up and down and one minute you think ‘ok I’ve go this,’ then you feel knocked over by a wave of grief again and it feels difficult to cope and get on. I know I found the bit between losing my mum and the funeral the hardest in terms of being floored by emotion. My head teacher at the school where I work was great and she had basically said leave when you need during that period and although I felt I could do it, there were a couple of days when I had to leave. Do you need to go in today, the day before the funeral is such an emotional and anxiety filled day? I just worked the morning in the end.
Just try and take it very easy and be kind to yourself. Tomorrow is a very big day and you’ll need your strength to get through. I was so pleased that my mum’s funeral went well and was how she would have liked it, I think, that I had like an adrenaline rush on the evening of it but then a big low and overwhelming sadness the day after so work this week may be a step too far. Focus on yourself and your loved ones and lean of those around you who are there for you to get through.
I’m sending you love and lots of positive vibes over the next few days xx