I lost my beautiful sister suddenly 5 weeks ago and myself and my family are really struggling to cope. I feel so lost and alone and the headache is unbearable. My lovely sister had just turned 49 and we are a close family. She was fit and healthy when one day I had gone round to drop her daughter home from college who is only 17 to find my sister in bed and unresponsive. I thought she was just in a deep sleep and tried to wake her. Realising then that something was seriously wrong, I started screaming for her to wake up. My neice phoned an ambulance who told her to tell me to do cpr until the ambulance arrived, who were very quick. I knew she was gone but they tried for about 1/2 an hour with her before declaring she had passed. We are currently having to clear out her home and her daughter is now living with mam and dad. I keep relaying that day over and over and wished to god I had gone round to see her sooner that day. We still dont know why it happened. I am trying my best to help my family but inside I’m screaming for help. She was my only sister, my go to. I know my parents have lost their daughter and her daughters have lost their mam too. I just feel like I am going to break seeing her over and over in my head that day. I have experienced loss before of my premature baby boys but this feels so much harder to bare and come to terms with. I dont know what to do or where to turn.
Hello @Dawn74,
Thank you for so bravely reaching out to the community. I am so sorry for the recent loss of your sister, and that you and your family are struggling to cope. It sounds like it has been a traumatic experience for you and that her death was a shock, and it’s completely understandable to be feeling lost.
However, please know that you’re not alone. We have many members who have experienced the loss of a sibling and will understand some of what you’re going through. You can read conversations our members have shared on the Losing a sibling category which you’ve posted in.
You may also find it helpful to read our Losing a sibling page on our website. It talks you through some of what you might be feeling, and how to cope. We also have an info page on coping with sudden deaths, which you may also want to read through when you feel ready.
I hope you find the community to be a support to you. Take good care 
Hello @Dawn74
I’m so sorry you and your family are going through this. It sounds so traumatic for you to have gone through and such a shock. It sounds like a cliche but at the moment you will need to take each minute, hour and day at a time and look after yourself as best as you can at any given moment. Your emotions may be all over the place. Wishing you the strength you need and sending a 
Take care 