My son died suddenly on January 22 2022 it was a massive blow to our family but in the last few months i cant stop crying i just wish it never happend and i would love to see himagain xxx
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My heart breaks for you my friend. Iām still trying to piece mine back together after losing two boys this year.
Itās ok to grieve and smile at the same time. Please remember to find time to look after you too 
My son died of cancer ,within of 3 months of being diagnosed, Ithink the first couple of months there is so much to do Then it suddenly hits you. I have a large photo on the wall and every morning I say good morning son and at night goodnight darling.
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Oh my goodness Iām exactly the same I talk all the time to a photo but it makes me feel good and closer. Iām so sorry for your loss.
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I think it does help,I sometimes ask him Questions , and I am sure I see him nod sometimes. I am sure sometimes if everyone saw this web site ,there would not be so many wars that are going on at the moment.I always say that all the money in the world it not worth one life . Love to you all
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I absolutely agree with you. If only those causing wars could feel just a fraction of our pain eh? You take care and keep talking to him 
This will be the 3rd Christmas after my son passed he is my only child and we had such a great relationship I talk to him daily and can hear him answer me in my head. He was 6 days into his 30th Birthday came home from work went to bed and never got up he had a pulmonary embolism life is so hard and the only word I feel describes how we feel is broken we all have a hard road ahead until we finally meet up with are children so just go at your own pace.I did say I would put the decorations up this year as we all loved Christmas but today I donāt think I will as you are all to well aware some days are ok then they are down then they go to the dark days .I still cry everyday day for my son and U always will. I will keep you all in my thoughts and preys throughout my painful journey x
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My heart goes out to you it is extremely hard especially this time of year. I though feel I want to put up the tree and light up the room to celebrate my sons life. I talk to him every day too and I can hear his voice all the time. What comforts me might not comfort others but itās all a learning curve for us in how to cope. Good wishes always and stay strong 
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Hi. I lost my nephew/son 2 weeks ago. My sisters 4 children are like my own. Iāve been there every step of the way. I take them on Hollidays every year and spend all my time with them. My eldest lad is disabled and was told he would live past his teens. He has always suffered from seizures most of his life. Heās now 32 and what a special amazing young man he is. 2 weeks today he had prolonged seizures and never came around from them and heās just gone like that. The shock and heartbreak I feel is just unreal. Iāve never lost anyone before but my lad is my world and now I donāt know what to do or how to be without him. I canāt bare to never see him again. I talk to him every day and kiss his photos and look for signs which he has sent me some already which gives me piece at the time. Iām just so numb
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My son was 47, he was born with mild cerebral palsy ,moderate learning disability, later developed epilepsy and under active thyroid.Maher was very independent travelling on local transport etc . No symptoms until he got pains in hip and spine, was told muscular.On 25th April the pain was so bad he could not get out of bed,got him to hospital, they said secondary bone cancer,could not find primary .he died on the 17th July ,within 3 monthsā¦ I understand how you feel ,live is had
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Margaret My youngest son wants the tree up ( heās 18) so I feel I will still so he doesnāt lose things that he liked about our traditions, its our 1st year so no idea how I will get through the day, especially as my husband, son , parents juts avoid saying his name. I can imagine in years to come I wont bother as Christmas day was all about my kids.
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I lost my gorgeous boy my whole world christian in February this year, my heart my world are totally shattered on Monday the 30 th October he would of been 26 x
Chris had duchenne muscular dystrophy, we always knew how the story would end, but I never wanted to finish the book. I just wish God would give me a fast pass to be with him on our journey again xxx
We used to play GOP 3 poker together online he taught me how to play, he named my poker name Boss grandma , and Chris was Poker pickle x
My heart goes out to you to . My son name was Christopher, I think what hurt me the most ,he never walked did he was nearly 3. That was the first thing taken away from him,as it was secondary bone cancer.But he was always so cheerful, phoning everyone up ,saying get out of bed you lazy bones. They all loved him at Mencap, a friend of his said to me I wanted to be there holding his hand.My thoughts are with you ,we had very special boys.Perhaps they are friends in heaven?
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I hope so x that would be lovely x
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Christian was a massive Man Utd fan and today is derby day, il take him a beer up x
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Hello Bossgrandma
Indeed today is Derby Day for all us die hards MUFC fans especially our late loved ones. My boy was a massive fan in fact all my boys and family are. I hope beyond hope that wherever āthe other side isā they will be cheering on the mighty reds today and having a few bevvies. Big hugs to you xxxx
It would have been my gorgeous boy Christianās birthday on Monday the 30 th oct x he would be 26. I would give anything in the world for one last minute x one last anything really x just to hear that ā MUMā just come hear a minute. Christian used to give me songs as gifts or if he was telling me something that he couldnāt say himself x it was beautiful really x I could write a book. An a play list. My last song to Chris was on his funeral day it was Mariah Carey One sweet day. His last song to me just before he passed was Elton John I guess thatās why they call it the blues x and Michael Jackson . you are not alone x my parting song is I follow him x
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One sweet day my gorgeous boy xxx
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