One sweet day, can’t come soon enough for me x if it weren’t for my daughter Jay and my two beautiful grandchildren Lyla 12 Elsie 6 I would be out of here on a fast pass x
I understand life is so hard even when you smile you hurt x
@Margaret116 hello, this is also my 3rd Christmas without my son, Daniel. It’s so hard, I’ll do all the right things, go through the motions but deep inside I’m broken.
I’m going to my other sons Christmas Day, doing something different, hope this helps make a little more bearable.
Take care xx
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Oh Margaret I’m having such a terrible time, I just can’t stop crying, it hurts so much my heart is shattered .I can’t stand even looking at anything chrismasy. I just want it to be over. But then I’m scared of the next stage, Christian’s 1st anniversary in February. Please god just get me out of here 
There’s nothing I can say to help you it’s a place I wouldn’t wish anyone to be .our life has changed so much just come back off holiday the sun helped a bit but when you get talking to people they always ask have you any kids . I would never deny him so then you end up telling them what’s happen as Craig was our only child I came back from holiday drained ,angry and so so sad .Me and my husband feel we have no future just going through the motions until we r together again .I hope you get some days of peace that’s all we can ask for at the moment .xx
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I’m just waiting and praying for my time to be soon xxx but I wouldn’t do anything silly, because I made Chris a promise x and he would rip my head off ! When I get there xxxx
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Do you have any religious beliefs? I do, I thank god he gave Christian to me, to be his mum and take care of him. Christian had duchenne muscular dystrophy, and I’m not even angry about that x what other mum would get to have her son as her best friend and spend everyday /night together having the best time. Other mums with a lad of 25yrs would never see them x but it was never gonna be long enough xxx
I to am counting the days to be with Craig he was my best friend still lived a home he was a gas engineer hard working good lad didn’t smoke or drink went to work as normal that day heard a noise in his room at night went in it was him called the ambulance took him to hospital he die of a pulmonary embolism just out of the blue . Our lives will never be the same I feel Craig with me all the time I smell him he talks to me in my head I do believe in god and I thank him for giving me Craig he was a kind caring young man but as you say I had him for 30 years and it wasn’t enough x
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My son was 47 years old ,had learning disability etc,but was doing well learning to be independent. He did not drink, did not eat a lot of red meat, had porridge for Breakfast,ate yogurt ,plenty of fruit when he came home at weekends,always active.He died of gastric cancer no symptoms until it went to secondary bone cancer,He died within 3months. They could not find primary,until they saw a small 20mm stomach ulcer? What he did say to us while we were holding his hands was I got to go now,I said where he said death and he tried to get out of bed.I just had that feeling someone had come for him.
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