loss of wife

lost my wife Feb. 2020 after 30 years together was hell at the time , but now its between grief and my mental health it can be a struggle do my best day to day was her carer for 8 years of it , when she went i never seen her eyes looking so blue when she winked at me as if to say its ok . still cant sleep anywhere other than my side of bed when she was in pain was very edge of bed the times i hate now is i still turn over to hold her then she not there that hits hard after being 8 years of not being able to cuddle / cwtch.

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So sorry for your loss Derek. It’s a dreadful feeling losing a beloved partner & friend.
We have to learn to live our lives in a different way but it is far from easy.
It must be so hard for you, especially after being your wife’s carer for 8 years.
Are you having some help with your understandable mental health issues? It sometimes helps to speak to a counsellor.
I totally understand you just wanting to cuddle your wife, I’m the same, missing my husband more than words can say.
It’s heartbreaking.
I hope this site helps you

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