I do to Pattoa, so good to have a place to talk xx
I know Paul, how can you compare, knowing you are going to die or dying suddenly with no warning. I know Shirl would have hated being dependent or looked after, she dreaded having a stroke, but I would have loved and cared for her to my dying day. I canât handle anything at the moment,I feel like I have disappeared into nothing, no future and my past doesnât exist anymore. I wish I had the faith people have to believe they will see their loved ones again, I wish I had some sign, I need to know she ok. Maybe she somewhere with Alan sharing a glass and saying look weâve got them talking! We did everything together, which why we not got many friends, we didnât need anyone else,just happy together. Be strong and be kind to yourself. Jackie x