I lost my husband in August. I nursed him til the end. It was the last thing I could do for him. He was 63. He’d been ill on and off since 2019. I got cancer in 2023 and as soon as I was lucky enough to finish my treatment he got a terminal diagnosis around the same time. I knew I was going to lose him. I knew he would fight but I still lost him. I feel absolutely horrified by what he went through and all I could do was to try and make it as painless as possible. I had to fight all the way for his pain meds. I was on my own with him when he passed. Family been great. But I don’t want them or my friends. No one understood me like him and vice versa. I have our 2 dogs who have literally saved me but I am bereft without him I’m totally lost and I can’t accept the fact he’s gone. I cry a lot and apparently I just look sad all the time. I know it’s early days but my future didn’t involve him not being here.
Hello @Jules62,
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling. I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your husband. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, you may wish to look at these Sue Ryder resources which might be helpful.
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Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
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Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through.
I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.
Take care,
Alex