Hi my name is Tina I really don’t know where to start a couple of weeks ago I lost my mum a day before my daughters 3rd birthday. My mum was 63 she died of respiratory failure me and my siblings wasn’t on the best terms with our mum for many years we hadn’t spoke for quite some time for various reasons but a few months ago she got admitted into hospital we was told there’s a chance she wouldn’t make it so we all went to see her thankfully she got better she went home she was told if she carried on smoking it would kill her and she promised she would stop I went and seen her once or twice we was messaging each other this relationship with my mum I longed for for so long coz I was so close to her years ago but then my step dad called and said she’s been rushed back to hospital coz she couldn’t breath then we got told she wasn’t gonna make it we was there when she took her last breath I’m just struggling to come to terms with it I find myself so angry with her coz she carried on smoking knowing it was killing her im angry that she’s left us but I also miss her so much I lost my dad 6 years ago suddenly to a cardiac arrest and he lived up north and we didn’t make it in time to say goodbye and I don’t even think I’ve fully grieved for him either I just feel so lost.
I can see that you’re new to the community, so I wanted to say that I am so sorry for the loss of your mum that brings you here.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share a few Sue Ryder resources with you that may help right now.
Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
Our Grief Coach text service, which sends you personalised text support via SMS
Our free Online Bereavement Counselling which is held via video chat
Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through.
You have been through a lot, so please do consider exploring extra support right now.
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.