My mum passed away this year after fighting cancer for 13 years. Every obstacle every bit of bad news or treatment that was thrown at her she took in her stride. But after getting the flu and being emitted to hospital after three weeks she passed away.
I’m only 20 years old as she passed exactly a month before me 20th birthday. I didn’t celebrate my birthday as felt it was wrong to do it without her.
Now every time I win something at work or get one step closer to a promotion or something stilly like I’ve made something new and want to show her I break down. I never do it in front of people and everyone tells me I’m handling it very well but inside I am falling apart and can’t cope.
I still live at home with my dad and little brother and rarely see my other family. I cook dinner go food shopping feel like I’ve taken over the role of mum. Don’t get me wrong I don’t mind but I feel like I’m stuck in my own head and am scared of what my life is going to be like with out the most important person my mum.
I just don’t know what to do anymore.