I am hoping this site helps me. I lost my mum my best friend, my everything to cancer in January. Mum was diagnosed 14months before she died and I was with her through all of her treatment. She spent her last couple of months at home with myself and my 2 daughters. She passed away in my arms. She took her last breath on my cheek.
My life has changed so much…I literally hate life without her. I know I have to keep going for my beautiful daughters…but at times it is such a struggle.
I lay awake at night going over everything we went through…how she was during her treatment…could I of done anything differently in order for her to have stayed with me for longer. I know it’s selfish wanting her here…but I need that last cuddle…I need to hear her tell me she loves me.
Her final hour alive she was struggling with her breathing…I laI’d beside her and reassured her we will be okay and that she shouldn’t fight nor suffer anymore…I told her to go to sleep and rest peacefully. Those words hang on my every thought and emotion…had I of not said that maybe she would be pulled trough
I am so so lost without her.