lost my mum july this year

mum passed away on the 19th july this year and i’ve just felt and been so lonely having no friends to talk to is the worst plus no one understands unless they have been through it trying to fake a smile everyday and pretend your ok for work or for your kids it’s hard i’ve been dealing with this solo i do have brothers and sister but it’s not a proper close bond as we were separated when younger and put in care i was always the one looking after mum till i couldn’t anymore and had to bring in help from another care company mum was always in and out of hospital and it still all fell on me aswell as trying to be a mum and work full time a a senior career now im just lonely with these waves of loneliness everyday because she’s not here anymore i was completely on my own when i had the call to tell me she had gone at 3am and when i told my husband he still went off with his friends after working a night shift and didn’t come home till 2 pm in the afternoon i had to tell the kids on my own

Hello. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. I lost my mum in May and it is hard. How old are your kids? Do you really have to put on a smile for them? It might be hard for them to understand how your mum has died but you look happy. Also, in turn, it could be that they feel they have to act happy if they have children and you die. Could you talk to them about how you really feel?

Sending Love and my thoughts. Be kind to yourself xxxx