Good morning everyone!
So I lost.my beautiful partner to lung cancer on Mother’s Day this year 2024 yes just 2 days ago.
We have been together for almost 9 years.
We share a dog and 6 cats together.
Her diagnosis came as a huge shock in just January of this year 2024 where she was given a prognosis of months to live. She survived just a month and a half.
I was her sole carer 24/7 which was hard work to see her deteriorate as quickly as she did.
My head is everywhere. I can’t stop crying I just don’t know how I’m going to get through this and I’ve been researching support groups etc and I stumbled across this page.
So we had abit of an age gap relationship I am 36 and she was only 55. Still so so young.
I wake up and just go through the motions of life. Our animals need me.
You see, me and my partner both had hysterectomy’s. Hers for cervical cancer which she beat years ago, and mine for endometriosis. So we both couldn’t conceive children. Our fur babies are our children.
So I wake up, and they need to be fed, let out for the toilet, a clean home for them to live in.
I have a purpose. But it doesn’t feel like that.
I find comfort in sitting on the sofa and just talking out loud to her. As if she is there.
I can feel her in the room. I know she is there. I know she’s listening.
I just need some support. I have spoken to my GP already, but i need to speak to people who can relate. That I can take comfort from.
And I guess that’s why I’m here.
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@Katelouise2626 im so sorry your special person has died . I lost my partner of 20 years , in January 2023 and since then my life has unravelled . He was 59 , so young too . He died suddenly and unexpectedly and I’m still in shock . I can’t believe he’s gone . I’m having a difficult time finding suitable housing as I left where we rented together, moved to a small more manageable flat . Well I hate it so I’m staying with my dad and not planning to return to my flat . I’m hoping to re-rent the house ! I’m told the LL will accept me back but once some work on it gets finished, so I have to be patient. What I’m trying to convey is that my heads still all over the place . I’m unable to make sound decisions still and I’m very indecisive. I don’t feel I’ll be happy anywhere. I know what it feels like when your life seems hopeless and unfortunately, for me anyway things haven’t improved. It’s going to take me a lifetime to get over him , the love we shared is irreplaceable. Sometimes you just need to accept the grief journey for what it is and go with it . My grief has changed, it’s not so raw , but I can’t sustain life as it is . I’m optimistic the house will be ready fairly soon then I can start a new chapter which will involve more meaningful healing. This has taken a while to get to this point . I hope you take care xxx
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Lost my husband to pancreatic cancer which had spread his lungs .I also talk to my husband,and i know hears me although he no longer with.i was my husbands full time carer also ,so i know how you feel
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